Happy times in my life, 20th BIRTHDAY AT the WATERPARK! 
Day with IZZIE!Well we all know it has been forever since I last posted but dumb Lauren decided to enroll in summer classes. And well my summer started bought a beautiful new laptop, got used to it (and I am still taking very good care of it), got started on my classes LOVED them the first week and a 1/2, second week came and my HATE for math came out. I do, I really can't stand to do math whatsoever!! But you know I do actually enjoy doing math when I can figure out the correct answers and when the happens I actually get into it. Math isn't the only class I am taking this summer though, I am also taking Western Philosophy. It's pretty exciting and I almost think I would really enjoy taking the class again sometime on a higher level. Only thing I am dreading about that class is the FIVE PAGE RESEARCH PAPER. Overall I am handling my classes okay I think just I get stressed out at times, ok I get stressed out pretty much every other day. They are horrible, I never thought online summer classes would be this bad, and to be honest I think I am being a big baby about it all if I would have taken 1 class I think i would be fine, but 2 classes that are usually done in 3 or 4 months during a fall or spring semster, I am doing in 10 weeks. 10 WEEKS. Yeah I am a crazy person at this point, today I found myself wanting to take everything that was sitting close to me and just smash it all, and the sad thing?...I don't think that would have made me feel any better, because I would just get mad again the second I got back on the computer. I know I am going on and on about how these classes are driving me INSANE but they seriously have me stuck in a rut at this point. I am constantly in a sad depressing mood, everytime I get to go somewhere to enjoy myself all I can think about is I hope I am not missing anything for my classes, and when I work hard on all that stuff and don't get the grade I think I deserve it is VERY DEPRESSING. SO yes, I am feeling pretty sorry for myself at this point, sad, sad, poor, pitiful Lauren. I really dislike feeling the way I have been feeling lately. So let's talk about something that makes me happy and the people who keep me going day to day shall we??:)
Cameron-My high school sweetheart, love of my life, best friend. Helps motivate me each and everyday, basically my personal cheerleader in life I'm so THANKFUL for him, he's the person I can talk to any time, wear baggy old t-shirts with my hair in a SIDE ponytail, dress up with, go riding around on a backroad with friends from high school, lay around on a Saturday morning and watch movies, play corn hole on Sunday afternoons, and most importantly he's the one I get to go running to at the end of each day, wrap my arms around him and let the world stop for a short second.
Payton-She is my sister, partner in crime, and truly someone I love with all of my heart. ALl I can say about Payton is our relationship is fun, outgoing, crazy, annoying, loving, and aggressive. We're not afraid to embrass each other when there are other people around, we'll stand in public and just lay around and hug on each other no matter who is looking, and we will let everyone know that we aren't perfect but we love our sister! People find it crazy how good we get along and how we can actually not fight, well we do fight just not that much, and I guess it was just how we were raised by our wonderful parents!
There are so many other people in my life that are there for me and I love them all dearly. I am just very thankful for all of them because I have been in a rut lately, and without them I don't think I could have overcome half of the things I have.
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