Well here again, it has been awhile since I have blogged, things here lately are very stressful for me. I had tried time after time to hold my thoughts, feelings, and words to myself but today for some reason I feel like I am about to explode. I only go to school two days a week this semester, and I really like it. I am so close to applying to the nursing program, but at the same time I feel as if I am SO far away. Do I really want to have the responsibility of taking care of a patient all by myself and helping them become well again? Well yes I do, I am just scared. I am so afraid for some reason that I am going to do something wrong. I have been trying to study hard and make good grades. I have passed every test that I have taken this semester. I love my anatomy teacher because he has seriously helped me understand how to study. I love my math teacher because I have struggled with math all through college, and now I am finally understanding it!
I just feel like putting my heart on my sleeve right now. I am stressed out, I have been worried and stressed before but I don’t think it has been as bad as it is lately. I have been having stomach attack, after stomach attack. It is not a funny little problem anymore it is serious. I have been going back and forth to the hospital and doctors office since before my colonoscopy. I just want things to stop stressing me out! It is a serious problem that no one understands, I mean my sister has something that is close to the same problem as mine, but mine happens a lot more than hers, so she understands for the most part. School is going good if only I could study without having a panic attack that would be nice. I love Anatomy and learning about the human body, I want to be an amazing Nurse when I finish school. It seems like everything gets to me, it can be a joke at first but the more I talk about it or read it or even listen to people talk about whatever it is I can’t handle it I feel like I can’t sleep because my stomach hurts so much at times. I am just going to start praying so hard, because God is the only person who can help me through this. I strongly dislike being so sad all the time, I am ready to be a happy person again!
Lauren, this is Miranda's mom and I just wanted to offer you some encouragement re: nursing. You are right to believe it will be difficult at times because it will be but you will succeed because you have the right attitude, you are smart and you are dedicated :) Nursing need people like you who are truly concerned for the welfare of others and choose nursing to help those in need! I am always here if you have questions or concerns. I have been interested in mentoring some students so if you would like that let me know. Just try to stay positive, keep yourself organized and most of all pray because you are right about God being your best advocate. I am cheering for you and wish you the very best :)
ReplyDeleteMrs. Lisa, I would love to be mentored by you!! Thank you so much for all your prays and support, I truly appreciate it. I am very interested in Nursing and I honestly would love to get some advice from you! It can be very stressed at times but I hear it is all worth it:) Thank you again!
ReplyDeleteP.S. you raised a very incredible daughter!