Learning so many new things!

Soooo.....I got my math test back today and......I made a 86! Whoo! I am so thankful for my math teacher she is truly teaching me math! I had school this morning and Tuesdays are my short days so I went to Math and Anatomy and learned alot! After school I went to purchase diapers, I know what your thinking what do I need diapers for??? Well ummm.............................................................
haha just teasing! They are for Clarissa's inspiration diaper cake! Yay! I got all the quotes fixed up and I bought the diapers all that is left to do is put everything together. First I went to the Dollar Store and ended up getting a little bit of a deal I got a pack of 50 diapers for $7:00. Plus there are more coupons inside!                                                  And here are the diapers I got.

Here are 50 quotes I have went through and researched and read and well let's just say I am tried of copying and pasting.

1.    "In the eyes of a child...there is joy, there is laughter... there is hope, there is trust, a chance to shape the future..."

2.    A brand new little baby boy, to fill our hearts and lives with joy"

3.    "A child fills a place in your heart that you never knew was empty"

4.    "A new baby is like the beginning of all things - wonder, hope, a dream of possibilities."

5.    "A wee bit of heaven drifted down from above, a handful of happiness, a heart full of love."

6.    Grant, We don't know you yet But we love you... You are New beginnings New life Family... The gift of tomorrow Belongs to you..."

7.    "For now in mommy's tummy...Forever in her heart..."

8.    "I am a Child of God"

9.    "Little hands and little feet, Little toothless grins so sweet, Little eyes that shine so bright,Little arms to hug you tight - Everythings little except your joy when you have a new baby boy."

10. “Miracle in the making”

11.  "Nothing is as precious or brings home so much love, as a brand new baby sent from above."

12.  People who say they sleep like a baby usually don’t have one."

13.  Special Things Come in Small Packages"

14.  Ten little fingers, Ten tiny toes, The sweetest of smiles And a cute little nose. All these add up To a very special thing -- A BABY The greatest of gifts That life can bring"

There is nothing like the blessing Of a bouncing, baby boy He will fill your home with energy And touch your heart with joy. He'll hug you and bug you And try you within But each precious memory You'll treasure again and again."

15.  twinkle twinkle little boy how you fill my heart with joy."

16.  You are so precious to me, sweet as can be, baby of mine."

17.  A new baby is like the beginning of all things, hope, a dream of possibilities.

18.  A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights longer, bank balance smaller, home happier, clothes dirty, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for.

19.  I don’t know whether they should say “You have a baby” Or “The baby has you”.

20. What are little boys, made of?
Frogs and snails,
And puppy dog tails,
That's what little boys, are made of.

21.  A baby is cuddles and tickles on toes, The sweet scent of powder, a kiss on the nose!

22. "Babies are bits of stardust, blown from the hand of God."

23.  Nothing is as precious
or brings home so much love,
as a brand new baby
sent from above.

24.  All of God's Grace
in one sweet little face.

25.  Every child begins the world again

26.  Aside from new babies, new mothers must be the most beautiful creatures on earth.

27. Always kiss your children goodnight - even if they're already asleep.

28. The moment a child is born,
the mother is also born.
She never existed before.
The woman existed, but the mother, never.
A mother is something absolutely new.

29. Take the love of the parents and sprinkle with heavenly spice, mold into a creation, only after the angels have stirred twice.

30. The Lord picks special parents. They are chosen from above

31.  A breath, a cry and a life brand new, in a single moment our dreams have come true.

32.  A wiggly, giggly bundle of fun, we have a huggable, lovable new baby son.

33.  Someone special, someone dear, someone new to love is here!

34.  Innocent, perfect and sweet as can be, our angel has arrived…blessed are we!

35.  A brand new baby is on the way so let’s celebrate with a special day!

36.  Bottles, booties, bibs and more, let’s shower the baby with gifts galore!

37.  This baby is your blessing,
I wish happiness in every way,
Good luck God bless,
I say
And many blessings and wishes,
To welcome baby into your life today

38.  Babies are such a nice way to start people.

39.  A basket full of sunshine,
    A house full of joy.
    What could be sweeter,
    Than a new baby boy.

40. A wee bit of Heaven drifted down from above,
   a handful of happiness, a heartful of love

41.   Sweet blessings from above, babies fill a home with love

42.  Babies are living jewels dropped unstained from heaven.

43.  Nothing is more precious than a baby’s laugh.

44.  A home gets happier by the minute when there’s a precious baby in it.

45.  In a baby’s touch you feel the gentle miracle of love

46.  What joy comes into your heart when a baby comes into your world.

47.  A baby helps us see the world through eyes of bright new wonder

48.  A baby is a gift of love

49.  Never knew all my hope and dreams would come in such a small package.

50. Nothing's as precious, or brings so much love, as a brand new baby sent from above.

NOW..My plan is to print out all the quotes on bright colorful paper and some with backgrounds on them and put them on every diaper. I want each diaper to have a inspirational quote on it so when she actually uses them with baby Grant she can pull out a diaper and read the special quotes I have found for her. It is just something that hopefully witll encourage her when she has a stressful day.

After I put the quotes on the diapers I really want to make it into a small diaper cake, but if I can figure it out is another story. This is what I want it to turn out like:

This but in a smaller version. Any suggestions?

So I got a few days off from work and I was very excited about that so Cam and I had planned on spending the evening together just the two of us, ha did those plans change!

Cameron got off of work at four and stopped by my house we watched t.v. for a minute and then he was getting ready to head down and help Mr. Tom. Well I walked him to his truck and I shouted oooh look at all those deer running in the next door neighbors field! He was like oh man, do you think your dad would get mad if I shot one? I replied idk lets go see if we can see them, so we hurry to the back porch and the deer are not that far at all most definately in shooting range. Cameron runs inside my house and grabs my dads gun I call dad, and ask (in a whispered tone) "Dad is it okay if Cameron shoots a deer in Mr. Gerald's back yard?" Dad-Well I guess as long as you make sure he can make the shot, let me know what happens. Me-Okay! So I shake my head to Cam and give him the go ahead, next thing I know BIG LOUD BOOM. I call dad and said, "Dad he just shot it!" He said ALREADY? that was fast? haha Dad was really happen for him. Cameron was excited too so we get on our boots and run into the field he drags her to the edge I pull her over and we load her into the truck. I do have to mention that my dad had seen this doe yesterday and she was injuried really bad and when Cam went to take the shot he had to shoot her inside of the bigger does, because she was having to suffer. We got everything done and dropped the doe off to Brown's and went to his house. We watched tv and cooked and then I came home. All in all a good day. I finally got to spend more than 45 mins with Cameron he started a new job and has been working alot lately. But thank you Jesus for blessing him with a job!

Savannah is coming home tomorrow and we are having lunch and going shopping at Goodwill yippee! I am excited I do have alot of things I need to finsh up in the morning (studying) so I guess I will wrap things up. I hope everyone has a blessed day!

I was being a big girl and helping Cameron load the deer into the truck. COUNTRY.:)

I need to be doing so many other things then blogging!

So there are so many things I could be...well NEED to be doing at this moment, but I watched T.v., sang to my webcam, and tried to study but couldn't concentrate. So I guess I will tell you about my weekend. I worked at Sassafraz Friday and Saturday and made pretty good money, after work Saturday Kayla and I went to eat at Applebees. And guess who showed up, my parents and sister! Yay I was excited they came to eat:)

Yesterday I went with Cam to Tobey's 1st birthday party
Here are a few photos from the day:)

Cameron and Lexie, Cameron begged her to take a picture and she pretty much was trying to get away so he said please, please take one good picture with my Lex. In the words of Lexie FINE! lol she still tried her best to get away lol

Hehe don't they look so sweet, he just loves Iz!

Last but not least Harper and the Birthday girl! She was excited to get the cake!

I can't remember what I talked about before I started dating Cameron, because now all I can talk about are his precious nieces!

Now I am sitting at home by myself watching Bogus and I am fixing to study!! I have to :) Goodnight everyone!

Baby shower!

Well this week has been a very productive week for me. I'm throwing one of my best friends a baby shower, which by the way no one warned me how much work it actually is! So I have been running around like crazy trying to fine things that match and what cake style should I choose, what color table cloth, plates, forks, napkins, INVITATIONS, who to invite?! Ah haha well I think I finally have mostly everything worked out for the most part.
Here are the ballons, plates, napkins, and innvites!

Her sister is making the cake for me so this is what I think we have decided to go with, but with a few more boy colors!

So I think I have everything done for that expect the invites, but that's ok because I already sent out a message on facebook so yay!

Well I guess I skipped a few things, Monday Cameron, myself, and Miranda drove up to Memphis because Pepaw was having Triple bypass heart surgery, all went well and we all had alot of bonding time while we were there. Hopefully he is getting to come home today! What a blessing. While we were at the hospital I got registered for my classes in the Spring semester my schedule is as follows:
Monday, Wednesday, Friday-Anatomy and Phisology 10:10-11:05
Mondays only I have a lab from 11:15-1:15
Tuesdays and Thursdays- I have Microbiology from 8:00-9:25
Math for Nurses from 11:10-12:45 and after that I have Micro lab from 12:45-3:45
I definately have a tough semester ahead of me, but the good news is if I can make a B in all of my classes I will be finished with all of my basic courses and able to apply to the Nursing program!

Wednesday was Tobey's 1st birthday! Saturday is her party, and I have to say I picked out a pretty awesome gift I think lol.

Tobey and myself on Halloween she was a cute little monkey!

Well I have a big to-do list to finish up so everyone have a great day!
Philippians 4:12
I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abdunace and need.

Relaxing day :)

Today was a Lauren day, I got to spend pretty much all day in my cozy house cooking homemade potato soup, researching things on the computer and watching Grey's Anatomy! I needed to have a day like today, it made me so calm and I truly felt better and refreshed. I did have to go to work at five o clock but I was the expo so I only had to work back in the kitchen sending out food. What a great day! Oh yeah and to top it off Cameron stopped by around 2 something and had a couple bowls of the soup I made and just spend some quality time with me. :) I am so excited because we have plans to get professional pictures taken by our friend Amber Next Sunday! Now Cameron is not the biggest fan of having his picture taken but he does like to see me happy so he agreed to get the pictures taken ha ha, what a wonderful guy.

Speaking of having pictures taken I am kinda sort of a FAN of this website so called PINTREST! Who isn't? Anyway, I have a board on my account that is named: "pictures I want to take," well I am so excited to actually get to use that board!

Last thing I want to say is today as I was relaxing by myself at home, I got to looking up careers in Nursing that I may be interested in, here is my list I came up with: (Listed in order of interest)
1. Surgical Nurse
2.ER Nurse
3. Labor and Delivery Nurse
4.Pediatric Nurse
5.Cardiac Care Nurse
6.Travel Nurse

Let's just say I got very motivated after looking into all these careers! I am actually going to be a Nurse one day!
God Bless everyone!

11/11/11

What a cool date huh? 11/11/11! The thing I choose to be thankful for today is all of the Veterans in the world. I know a few people who are serving in the Army, and Marines but other than that I don't think I know many others on a personal level. I am so very thankful to know that I live in the land of the free and the home of the brave and it is all thanks to our military.
Today was a really good day, I went over to Cameron's dad's and spent time with my future sister-in-laws and nieces. After that I went to work and made pretty good considering we were not as busy as we have been. And now I am at home just had a shower and relaxing, I also have my pecan pie candle lit so it seems like Christmas, and I love it!

Tomorrow I am hoping to wake up fairly early and start a pot of warm potato soup:) It looks like I will be the only one eating as of right now because, Cameron is going duck hunting, Payton will be home until 12 than she has try outs for a travel softball team in Dyersburg, mom and dad are going with her, Savannah is going to be at MTSU for a cheerleading competition, and well that's pretty much leaves me! I may call my Granny to come over and have some soup with me who knows!
I have been feeling much better the past few days and hopefully now I am good to go after all my sadness at the beginning of the week!

Last night I started searching for the ultimate Christmas gifts to give people, (something that they have wanted for a while, that I know they will like, and most of all something that is meaning full to them!) I started with Payton and this is what I have in mind for her:

Personally I think she is going to be super excited about them!! I am going to pay a girl to paint them, and they will be custom designed for her!!

-I should note that I typed this out after work, I was extremely tired so I had to finish everything up this morning. The title is still going to be 11/11/11 because that is awesome!

Learning to be thankful for the blessings God has given me

I have to say I have been down in the dumps over the past few days, but I am trying very hard to change that streak! I have been sad all week and tonight Cameron told me he wanted me to come over so we could spend some time together, well I went ahead and came over to his house and let me tell you HE IS THE SWEETEST. He cheered me right up, he also cooked me supper and listened to me pour out all about my day. All in All, Cameron Turner Jones is an amazing Fiance, and I am so thankful that God has placed him in my life.
After saying that I have been doing some thinking, and when I say thinking I mean I have been thinking WAYYYY WAYYY to much. I have decided that I whine way to much, I need to be more thankful and appreciative of the things I have in my life, because some people are not as fourtune as I am. Thanksgiving is coming up and I am going to try and say the things I am thankful for everyday until Thanksgiving.
Today I am thankful for my wonderful family. My mom helps me make decisions about things I am unsure about on my own, she is helping me learn about keeping up with your bills and how to do things a certain way to keep things smooth. My dad is always supporting me and encouraging me, one thing that my dad does that is very special to me is he sends out a text to me my mom and sister everyday telling us how much he loves us and usually he includes something inspiring or funny. My sister is always there when I need her, she is only 15 but is definately a very smart girl. My granny is amazing! She is a strong independent woman and she inspires me so much!! My momo is a great woman who has over come breast cancer she is a fighter, and my grandfather is a sweet man who is very intellengent. He is always on his toes. I love them all so much they mean everything to me as well as the rest of my family does aunts, uncles, and cousins. I love family! Thank you Lord for a wonderful, loving, and caring family.

Hard time

Well here again, it has been awhile since I have blogged, things here lately are very stressful for me. I had tried time after time to hold my thoughts, feelings, and words to myself but today for some reason I feel like I am about to explode. I only go to school two days a week this semester, and I really like it. I am so close to applying to the nursing program, but at the same time I feel as if I am SO far away. Do I really want to have the responsibility of taking care of a patient all by myself and helping them become well again? Well yes I do, I am just scared. I am so afraid for some reason that I am going to do something wrong. I have been trying to study hard and make good grades. I have passed every test that I have taken this semester. I love my anatomy teacher because he has seriously helped me understand how to study. I love my math teacher because I have struggled with math all through college, and now I am finally understanding it!

I just feel like putting my heart on my sleeve right now. I am stressed out, I have been worried and stressed before but I don’t think it has been as bad as it is lately. I have been having stomach attack, after stomach attack. It is not a funny little problem anymore it is serious. I have been going back and forth to the hospital and doctors office since before my colonoscopy. I just want things to stop stressing me out! It is a serious problem that no one understands, I mean my sister has something that is close to the same problem as mine, but mine happens a lot more than hers, so she understands for the most part. School is going good if only I could study without having a panic attack that would be nice. I love Anatomy and learning about the human body, I want to be an amazing Nurse when I finish school. It seems like everything gets to me, it can be a joke at first but the more I talk about it or read it or even listen to people talk about whatever it is I can’t handle it I feel like I can’t sleep because my stomach hurts so much at times. I am just going to start praying so hard, because God is the only person who can help me through this. I strongly dislike being so sad all the time, I am ready to be a happy person again!

Yesterday's blog

Well my online classes have been better today, I stayed the night with Cam last night so I got up at the crack up dawn and came home so he could go to work. :) I got home around 7:45 this morning and started doing my philosophy homework and got everything finished this morning! Whoooo, later in the afternoon I worked on my math for a little while and now all I have to do is finish up 18 problems before tomorrow night. YAYY
Tomorrow is my dad's birthday! Happy Birthday daddy:) I love you! :) (Hope you like my gifts:))

Today was a much better day than yesterday was, today I got to see Cameron this morning, came home got my homework finished up, took a nap, watched Grey's Anatomy, got to spend some time with my mom and sister, bought dad's birthday present, and went to work. After work I came home and watched Due Date with my family.
At work tonight I bought this book that I have been eyeing for months! I wasn't going to get it but I thought and thought about it and I made up my mind to get it. The book is called BRIDE-TO-BE. It has a page that ask you a question about you and your loved one and leaves room for you to write, and then it also has encouraging bible verses on the tops and bottoms of the pages. Basically it is a book for the bride to keep up with all the exciting things that happen to her and her fiancé, I am so excited to write in it! Well I am about to go lay down so I'll be ready to do math in the morning!

Payton and I at the hair salon in Martin to get feathers in her hair:)

Happy things

As I was reading all my past posts I realized I do alot of whineing and I seem like a very sad depressing person, but really I'm not!.....so happy facts about Lauren...
On June 24th, 1991 I was the new baby girl of Lori and Trent Robertson.
They named me Lauren Ashley Robertson, I beat meningitis when I was only four months old.
When I was five I was blessed with a little sister Payton Alexandria.
I had a friend in my life who was there for me since I was born, Ryan Christopher Chandler, he was like a brother to me.
Started playing softball when I was 5 years old.
I had my tonsils surgically removed on a Friday night when I was like 12 because they were abscessed,  two weeks later I was throwing up blood and was back in the hospital, but they fixed me:)
Shingles in the like 5th grade because I stressed out over T-CAP testing and still had to go to school and take the test (wearing coverall's and NO PANTIES, and when your that young wearing no panties is awful! haha)
Made junior high cheerleading aquad got to compete all over, and wear cute hair pieces, paint crazy colors and wear wild eye liner.
Got to high school made freshman cheerleading squad (BIG DEAL), and made high school softball team(Where I was the only freshman that got to start on Varsity squad:)).
Sophmore year of high school meant my fiance, found out who my true best friends are, and still have them in my life today (Savannah, Clarissa).
Junior Year- I am high school catcher, I am working hard and dominating. TIme to start thinking about college.
Senior year- Still playing softball one of the highest ranked batters on the team, SIGNED WITH A COLLEGE TEAM TO PLAY A YEAR OF COLLEGE SOFTBALL, (very big deal with my family, made my daddy very proud).
Freshman in college- Played a year of college ball, loved it at first it was fun, but needed to focus on my Nursing degree.
Second year- work, work, work, no ball :( Sad year. worked on school work and had the highest GPA of my college career (Proud of MYSELF)
Now-taking summer classes, hoping to get into the Nursing program next year, working at Sassafraz, working as DeLise's assistant, paying a new car payment, paying insurance, paying cell phone data plan bill, paying for expensive gas, and trying to be with my family and future husband. My life is hecktic at this moment, but I am 20 years old engaged, working two jobs, as well as being a full time student. Wanted to try out for American Idol, but you know that I couldn't! I am very blessed by God for all the wonderful things he has given me. Hope you enjoyed my life story in short version haha!

Geez, when was my last post?!?!

Happy times in my life, 20th BIRTHDAY AT the WATERPARK!

Day with IZZIE!

Well we all know it has been forever since I last posted but dumb Lauren decided to enroll in summer classes. And well my summer started bought a beautiful new laptop, got used to it (and I am still taking very good care of it), got started on my classes LOVED them the first week and a 1/2, second week came and my HATE for math came out. I do, I really can't stand to do math whatsoever!! But you know I do actually enjoy doing math when I can figure out the correct answers and when the happens I actually get into it. Math isn't the only class I am taking this summer though, I am also taking Western Philosophy. It's pretty exciting and I almost think I would really enjoy taking the class again sometime on a higher level. Only thing I am dreading about that class is the FIVE PAGE RESEARCH PAPER. Overall I am handling my classes okay I think just I get stressed out at times, ok I get stressed out pretty much every other day. They are horrible, I never thought online summer classes would be this bad, and to be honest I think I am being a big baby about it all if I would have taken 1 class I think i would be fine, but 2 classes that are usually done in 3 or 4 months during a fall or spring semster, I am doing in 10 weeks. 10 WEEKS. Yeah I am a crazy person at this point, today I found myself wanting to take everything that was sitting close to me and just smash it all, and the sad thing?...I don't think that would have made me feel any better, because I would just get mad again the second I got back on the computer. I know I am going on and on about how these classes are driving me INSANE but they seriously have me stuck in a rut at this point. I am constantly in a sad depressing mood, everytime I get to go somewhere to enjoy myself all I can think about is I hope I am not missing anything for my classes, and when I work hard on all that stuff and don't get the grade I think I deserve it is VERY DEPRESSING. SO yes, I am feeling pretty sorry for myself at this point, sad, sad, poor, pitiful Lauren. I really dislike feeling the way I have been feeling lately. So let's talk about something that makes me happy and the people who keep me going day to day shall we??:)
Cameron-My high school sweetheart, love of my life, best friend. Helps motivate me each and everyday, basically my personal cheerleader in life I'm so THANKFUL for him, he's the person I can talk to any time, wear baggy old t-shirts with my hair in a SIDE ponytail, dress up with, go riding around on a backroad with friends from high school, lay around on a Saturday morning and watch movies, play corn hole on Sunday afternoons, and most importantly he's the one I get to go running to at the end of each day, wrap my arms around him and let the world stop for a short second.

Payton-She is my sister, partner in crime, and truly someone I love with all of my heart. ALl I can say about Payton is our relationship is fun, outgoing, crazy, annoying, loving, and aggressive. We're not afraid to embrass each other when there are other people around, we'll stand in public and just lay around and hug on each other no matter who is looking, and we will let everyone know that we aren't perfect but we love our sister! People find it crazy how good we get along and how we can actually not fight, well we do fight just not that much, and I guess it was just how we were raised by our wonderful parents!

My parents- They brought me into this world, they nurtured me to health when I would get sick and they have never left my side, they are great parents and I love them so much.
There are so many other people in my life that are there for me and I love them all dearly. I am just very thankful for all of them because I have been in a rut lately, and without them I don't think I could have overcome half of the things I have.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;  in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight

Stronger

Well let's see, here lately I have been really depressed and down in the dumps, stressed out to the max, and working, and studying, yup it's offiicial I am a college student..ha like I say that like this is a surprise..well IT'S NOT....College is going so great, I'm pretty sure this is the best semsemter I have had yet. I love my classes at first they were very stressful, but I have passed all of my tests, turned in all of my work and I actually have developed a pretty good work ethic...I think. haha..Since I have been doing so much school work I haven't had much time for fun, the only time I have fun is when I'm with my family, Cameron, or his family. I got to see my best friends this past weekend though so that made me a little better! She always knows how to make my frown turn upside down bahaha...I have just been having a hard time with other things I'd rather not say. I just want them to change, get better, maybe..Not that things are terrible, I definately have no reason not to be thankful, I just have some lose ends I need to figure out how to tie them back up. I am growing up, I mean Cameron turned 20 years old today, we have been together since I was 15 crazy right? It has been so wonderful though. I am very glad I met him. I think I am jut going through a baby depression, because I, I I don't really know why I feel this way, I just want to make myself stronger, I want to find myself. I want to find who I really am as a person. I think I know excalty who I am I just want to make sure of it.I am pretty sure I'm the girl who had really big dreams and put them on the back burner. I got afraid, and basically gave up and quit everything I ever truely dreamed of doing. Wow I'm such an idiot, idk if I could do it over again I don't think I'd change a thing. Who knows. maybe somethings, maybe? I know I wouldn't change my friends or my boyfriend, I would change, my attitude, I would encourage myself a little more I would focus on the important things, instead of things that do not matter such as my clothes and thing of that nature. I am going to try my best to find that sweet little brown haired girl who isn't afraid of yelling to the world and letting them know the things she wants to do!

Wheew wee!

Well school is now in full swing!! I haven't stopped doing homework since the first day of school. But I am really trying to give it my all this go around. I have been trying harder, and I am constantly trying to get some studying in! I think I am doing pretty well so far hopefully I can come out with all A's and B's this semster.. My family has been very supportive and great. Cameron started back to school so he is at it too he is doing great with actually going to his classes and keeping up with this assignments and all that good stuff. I know he can do it and I am so very proud of him for going back! His 20th birthday is coming up this Monday, I bought him a new smartphone! He loves it and yes I couldn't keep it from him I gave it to him early lol. But I have a surprise in store for him if all works out they way I want it to. Anywho I just wanted to update and hopefully I will have some freetime in the next couple of days to tell you how school is going. Oh yeah and I go to re-take the Nursing exam on the 4th!! Prayers are needed! :)

Why can't this be easy?

Life, Love, Family? Okay where do I begin? Well the past few days have been good I worked alot and got to spend today with my sister and the best boyfriend in the world. I had to go to work tonight and it went well. My other boss called me today and really made me disappointed, well upset or maybe even a little bit sad. It seems llike I can't do anything right for her. I mean I try so hard to do all these things she has thought me to do and when I think everything is going to be just right and just the way she likes it she doesn't. Or in her words her husband doesn't like it. It honestly hurts my feelins so badly everytime she cuts me to the bone and thinks nothing of it. She is mean to me and I just stand there and take it.Yes she has done a lot for me over the past few months. I just I don't know, but anyways I have the day off tomorrow until I go into work at Sassafraz. I think it will be a pretty good night:) I also started back to school last Thursday. This semster is going to be pretty easy I am just going to have to stay on top of my homework and due dates for my assignments. I am also excited that Cameron is starting back to college! Yay for him he sat out last semster so he gets to return this time to study hard! I'm so proud of him:) Cameron and I have been so close lately he is the love of my life. He spent the whole day with me until I had to go to work. I had an amazing time with him. After work I came home and had an amazing supper with mom. Dad cooked hamburgers and I cooked myself a baked potato that I WAY over-cooked. lol Sounds just like something I would do. It's okay though I got about five bites out of it, that's all that was left that wasn't hard as a rock. Haha anyway I feel so bad. I think I hurt my mom's feelings. She asked me to scratch her back and well I was in a hate-ful mood and scratched her way too hard, and made her cry. I made my mom cry she has been having a orugh time lately and I could suck it up and help her. I am a bad person. I need to get myself together and think about things I have done to her I feel horrible. I wish things could just be easy in life, but you know what they are not even close to being easy. But that is okay God doesn't put us through anything we can't handle. I love him so much for that. He makes us strong! I appoligzed to my mom and she said okay, I still feel horrible but maybe I can make things up to her tomorrow, maybe I'll bring her lunch or something. I hope things get better but at times I feel like she doesn't like me but deep down I know that she loves me and just doesn't like to show it. Maybe one day we'll have a wonderful relationship. One day

Well hello there blog, I've missed you! I have had a wonderful past few days, I got to sleep in on Monday because we got some snow! Me and Payton went to Walmart together and bought some fruit to make a fruit salad and it was so yummy! We love those days where we get to have a sisters day! I love my sister so much and I am so glad when we get to have those days just the two of us. Tuesday I had to work at Sassafraz and I had a good night we were a little bit slow but that's okay. Today I worked all day for Delise I had an overall good day. I went to my Granny's house on my lunch break. I love my Granny, she is always there for me when I need her. I went home and got a shower after work than I talked to mom and Payton than I went to Cameron's. He cooked his amazing soup and we had a very nice dinner. I love Cameron so much, thank you Jesus for him and my amazing family!

January 5th, 2011

Well It's been a few days since my last blog because I have been super sick. I had the stomach virus in Feb. I had it about two months ago and I had strep throat the week after Christmas! Than two days ago I got sick again, I felt horrible I am just now feeling better today.. Thank you Jesus. I took my Nursing test two days ago and I actually didn't do too bad!!! I was so excited I passed the Reading with flying colors and I missed the Math by only 15 points but I get to retake it on Feb. 4th! Yay! Hopefully I will make a 95 or above!!! I have found that I have gotten so much closer to Jesus now I have been praying more and talking to God like I used too.. Let me tell you I have found that when you follow God he will make your life more smoothly. I am so Glad I am trying to get my life back on track. I went back to work for Delise today and it was not fun. I have to get ready for Sassafraz work now. I'm ready to make some money!  Then get home and watch some DVDS My daddy fixed my dvd player in my room I love it!!Sorry this was so short!

All-nighter

Well Uncle Alvin's funeral was yesterday and it was so nice. He was in the  military so the funeral was military style, it was so touching watching them really made me appreciate the people who fight for my freedom more. Uncle Alvin was a great man and worked hard for the things he had during his life he loved his family so much. His wife my Aunt Joyce seems to be doing okay as of yesterday she is a strong lady and she believes in God. I love my family so much I hate that we never get to see each other that often when we all do get together though it is so wonderful. Today was my lazy day, I slept in until 11:00! I try my best to never sleep past nine because I want to live my life to the fullest lol. I watched movies with my family when I woke up and then we all got to cleaning the house. Payton and myself DESTROYED my room. Don't worry we put it back together. I went through all my t-shirt drawer and got rid of alot of older t-shirts I had so I can donate them to Goodwill. Goodwill is an awesome store and this is my first time to donate there, I'm pretty excited!! Tomorrow at one o'clock I have a huge test well it is to help me get into Nursing School. I will try to write some more tomorrow I have to try to start studying again. Please Dear Lord help me during this test!!!